~ The 49th Anniversary ~

For the first time in 32 years I didn't feel the sharp sting of sorrow that has always pierced my heart on April 21st.

For the first time I didn't feel as though an icy hand had reached inside my chest and gripped that heart, squeezing every last drop of blood out of it.

For the first time I didn't feel completely consumed with helpless sorrow and fury.

And - though I still felt sadness - with it and softening it, for the first time in 32 years I felt something new - a sense of calm and peace… and as though every tiny drop in the sea makes a vast difference to the world.